As you have probably noticed... I'm once again in a relationship
Many questions probably popped into your head
probably confusion and possibly anger too.....
I apologize to those that have emotional ties to this situation. I truly appreciate all the help I had and support through all this. I have no regrets to anything that has happened in the past two weeks. I'm going to take this time to try and help you understand what has been going on in my heart.
I was that girl... the girl that breaks up with her boyfriend and then wants him back after she realizes how much she loved him... I hated being that girl but that's how it worked out this time. I was plenty angry ...I was plenty jealous.. I was plenty depressed and sad. Trust me... my poor roommate had to hear all of it! As the days went on I realized I could never be just friends with him because of the attachment I still felt inside. I told him I needed time apart... but it just made things worse. I couldn't even sleep in my own bed anymore. I tried making him mad... he called me and ended up making me laugh instead. That's when I realized how much he really cares for me too. I began to think and think and think ... all about him. No one has ever taken over my mind like that before. I tried to figure out why...
I realized that I do want to be with him. Even after the anger and after the sadness ... I'd wake up the next morning with a weird voice in my head saying that I unconditionally love him. No one is perfect and even though things upset me.. I couldn't remain upset. What we had was beautiful and hes one of the few people that I can completely trust with all my heart....yes all of my heart. He is loyal to his friends and family and I know he has been especially loyal to me. The other thing is that he NEVER takes me for granted. I'm sorry, but if you find a man that doesn't take all you do for him for granted then girl you keep him.
The reason why I broke up with him was because I wasn't being patient... I wasn't giving him a chance to learn. Instead of just thinking things out I always would jump to conclusions and just get angry...and then I would make others angry... I wasn't being myself. I wasn't being fair.
Looking back on it I'm very glad it happened.... I know what he means to me and I'm ready to be patient....however long it takes as long as I'm with him I'll be happy. I hope my friends will remain supportive... that's what friends do right? They love you no matter what... even if they think your making the stupidest mistakes.
Peace and Love,
Giggles
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